I always have this morbid fascination on crime stories. I am not talking about those crime series on TV (I often find them boring and unrealistic), but more about the crime stories that happened in real life. I have subscribed to Crime Investigation Network and can watch its shows for hours on end that sometimes I’d be teased at home: “O, patayan na naman ang pinapanood mo!”
My interest in true crime is not because I have this sick longing to kill or because I am morbidly drawn to the killers, but more of the curiosity in the psychology and pathology of it. The details of the crimes, especially the manner/brutality/goriness of the killing and the overall shock value—is something that always intrigued me.
Fear is a very powerful emotion as this is a basic feeling. Watching and reading about true crime gives a person a rush of adrenaline. I couldn’t use the word excitement to describe it (especially if the crime is too violent), but we can agree that it’s thrilling. You know how they say that no matter how horrific, people tend to still look at a freak car wreck just because we simply cannot just look away? I likened my interest in true crime to that.
True crime exposes us to the most deviant of the human mind. We want to understand what makes a mind so twisted to commit such act. For a person like me who can’t even bear to hurt an animal, I always wondered about the motives, if it was nature or nurture (or the lack of it) that drove these twisted individuals to kill another human being.
I also wonder what goes on in the mind of both the perpetrator and the victim at the time of the crime. When a crime is so taboo and brutal, I do get upset, disgusted and paranoid, but all that doesn’t stop my fascination for it.
There will always be that gripping fear of knowing that such a thing can happen to anyone. I have heard of the most evil, brutal and heinous crimes and sometimes it makes me think how unfortunate the victims were to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. I always thought of the possibility that I could be one of the would-be victims of Ted Bundy, just because I happen to be by nature, trusting. If Bundy approached me in a cast and asking me to help him, I’d probably would— and sometimes it’s terrifying to think the likelihood of it. I feel that my interest in real crime stories also helped me to prevent becoming a victim.
I know the allure for such dark subject matter is not something people can easily admit to, but I am ready to bet that I’m not alone. There’s something about real crime stories that pique one’s interest; whether it’s the chilling details or the shocking circumstances that led to the crimes itself, some people can’t help being drawn to it.
So, who else among you have the same fascination?
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Fear is a very powerful emotion as this is a basic feeling. Watching and reading about true crime gives a person a rush of adrenaline. I couldn’t use the word excitement to describe it (especially if the crime is too violent), but we can agree that it’s thrilling. You know how they say that no matter how horrific, people tend to still look at a freak car wreck just because we simply cannot just look away? I likened my interest in true crime to that.
True crime exposes us to the most deviant of the human mind. We want to understand what makes a mind so twisted to commit such act. For a person like me who can’t even bear to hurt an animal, I always wondered about the motives, if it was nature or nurture (or the lack of it) that drove these twisted individuals to kill another human being.
I also wonder what goes on in the mind of both the perpetrator and the victim at the time of the crime. When a crime is so taboo and brutal, I do get upset, disgusted and paranoid, but all that doesn’t stop my fascination for it.
There will always be that gripping fear of knowing that such a thing can happen to anyone. I have heard of the most evil, brutal and heinous crimes and sometimes it makes me think how unfortunate the victims were to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. I always thought of the possibility that I could be one of the would-be victims of Ted Bundy, just because I happen to be by nature, trusting. If Bundy approached me in a cast and asking me to help him, I’d probably would— and sometimes it’s terrifying to think the likelihood of it. I feel that my interest in real crime stories also helped me to prevent becoming a victim.
I know the allure for such dark subject matter is not something people can easily admit to, but I am ready to bet that I’m not alone. There’s something about real crime stories that pique one’s interest; whether it’s the chilling details or the shocking circumstances that led to the crimes itself, some people can’t help being drawn to it.
So, who else among you have the same fascination?
Insan, pareho tayo. Lahat ata ng mga crime stories napanood ko na sa netflix. Lagi ko niloloko si Apee. Nanonood ako para alam ko kung paano ako liligtas kapag ginawa ko na sa yo yan:) Charot.
ReplyDeleteSabi nila yung mga serial killers daw, kaya paulet ulet nila ginagawa, kasi hinahanap nila ang "first high" na parang mga addict sa heroine. Yung di nila maramdaman o di malampasan yung feeling nung una, kaya na aaddict.
//Garet
Magkakasundo pala tayo diyan, `insan. Sa bahay kasi, ako lang ang mahilig. Nung wala nga sa cable package namin ang Crime Investigation Network, nagpalagay talaga ako.
ReplyDeleteBiruan din namin `yun ng friend ko. Sabi ko kakanood ko niyan, alam ko na kung paano manglason ng tao ng walang trace. Pero siyempre, joke lang yun.
Sa mga serial killers na tulad ni Bundy and Gacy, talagang wala—may malalang sayad na yung mga `yun. `Pag napapanood ko `nga kung paano pumatay si Bundy nu'n, wala talagang regard sa human life. Ang nakakapagtaka dun, marami pa rin ang mga babaeng nagkakagusto sa kaniya even after the fact. Yun ang mga mas baliw. Hahaha!
Dyan kayo magkakasundo ng sister ko. Mahilig sya sa ganyan. Sya lang ata ang kilala ko na lahat ng crime related shows sa netflix napanood na. :P
ReplyDeleteMagkakasundo pala kami then. :)
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