Don't make me forget

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Times are quite bumpy for me now. There are just too many bills coming in one after the other that it overwhelms me sometimes I feel I’m only working just to pay it all off. And while it’s not as bad as me and family not having enough for everyday needs like food and stuff, it’s not what I’d call “ideal” in terms of finances. It can be quite daunting at times that even if I was convincing myself that I’m not actually broke when I’m responsible enough to pay my obligations on time, it stresses me so much. Like, it wouldn’t hurt if I win money somewhere or get unexpected windfalls to ease it out a little.

The thing about being in this situation is having that feeling that while I’m so down on my luck, I see other people just having it good, like they don’t even have to try. Yes, social media sucks that way because you end up comparing yourself to other people. I start questioning my choices, asking where I went wrong or if some of my decisions could’ve been better.

It’s Been A Long While

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I forgot that my domain renewal was coming up if not for the e-mail notification. I thought hard and long if it’s still worth it to pay $16/year and keep this blog if I won’t be posting as often as I used to, but I decided to keep it for the meantime.

I have not blogged in more than two months but I’m not sorry. I planned to during the election fever but everything about Philippine politics has gotten so toxic that I chose not to add my sentiments anymore. So many people have had enough of it. I know I did.

Hoping for a middle ground

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It’s been two years since our last normal week in the office before it was initially declared that we’ll be having a 30-day community quarantine in an attempt to curb the spread of COVID-19. 

Since then, I have never set foot in the office except at times when I’d pass by and see the towering RCBC Plaza along Ayala and Gil Puyat Avenue from afar.

It was truly a blessing when I was one of the people from our team first selected to work from home—starting on March 27, 2020, which was a Friday. I never thought then it will last this long, so like everyone else, I took it as some sort of a “break” or a “vacation”. I may have bought a new laptop for me to use but I never bothered about getting myself settled in the hopes that all will be temporary.